heal the world

There's A Place In Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love And This Place Could
Be Much Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try,You'll Find There's No Need
To Cry,In This Place You'll Feel
There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

school starts tmr and i am totally not looking forward to it. but im gonna study hard for this semester. went for one minute of fame ytd and then watched fireworks!

R.I.P

i love and i miss you. i want you now now now. who are you?

kfc breakfast

at faiz's house but brought along my laptop. earlier in the morning met up to eat KFC breakfast. anyway,it was nice but it didn't really made us full so we both bought another toasted twister takeaways.then went back to his house. now he is straightening my hair :) ok bye.

Sentosa

Sentosa on Monday was fun though not much people attended. Met at 10+ at Boon Lay interchange and we bought food at Fairprice. Then we trained to Harbourfront and to Sentosa. Settled down and changed and went into the sea. Didn't wanna wet my hair,duh everyone doesn't want to spoil their hair but in the end was all wet! Haha. Went quite deep and Haikal keep pulling me to the middle and i had to shout and luckily Syahz took me back. I got pulled! Then heidi got carried and thrown into the sea! Haha..So much fun. Then we ate,showered and ate a proper meal at LJS. Overall,it was really2 fun.






idontknowwhwattofeelinid2stoplyin2myselfamiabletodotatiwillgetbackiwillgetbakiwillwhyamidoingtis

Drag me to hell

Drag me to hell with Faiz on Saturday.



Met him at his house and fixed my hair before going to eat at Enaq! Then we halfway walk then wanted to change money so took bus. Then train to orchard and watched at cathay. We had to wait for more than an hour so we walked around and spent most of our time at paragon. Bought gloria jean cos we starbucks and coffee bean was full. Movie was good and scary to me. I think i shouted quite a lot and eventually the popcorn dropped to the floor. hahaha. We walked around for a while and then went home.




Goodnight.

Video Call

Video calling Faiz right now. Even though it's late/early. Had a great week. Tmr going out with Faiz to eat at Enaq. OMG,thinking about it like right now. I was sick and now i'm staying up till so late. Sigh. I hope school holiday extends :D.

Bad News

were you?

99 questions

1. full name : Hajar

2. Nickname[s] : jar
3. Age : 14 going on 15
4. Horoscope : Virgo
5. Male / Female : F
6. Elementary : PPIS

7. Middle School : BLPS/JPS
8. High School : YHSS
9. College School : -
10. Hair Colour : Brown
11. Long /Short : Short
12. Loud/Quiet : Lous
28. First Pet : -
29. First Big Vacation : Indon
30. First Love At First Sight : ?
31. First Big Birthday : 2006
32. First Surgery : Kindergarten/Head
33. First Sport You Joined : T&F
34. Orange / Apple Juice : Apple
35. Rock / Rap : Rock&Rap
36. Country / screamo : Country
37. NSYNC / Backstreet Boys : Bb
38. Christina Aguilera / Britney Spears : Britneey Spears
39. Night / Day : Night
40. Sun / Moon : Moon
41.Tbee/Internet: Internet
42.Playstation/Xbox: PS
43.Kiss/Hug: Kiss&Hug
44.Iguana/Turtle: Turtle
45.Spider/Bee: Bee
46.Fall/Spring: -
47.Limewire/iTunes: iTunes
48.Soccer/Baseball: soccer
49.Eating: Fox's sweet
50.Drinking: Nothing
51.Excitement level: MAXIMUM
52.I'm about to: answer the questions?
53.Listening to: The climb - Bitch cyrus
54. Plan for today: -
55.Waiting for: nothing
56.Energy Level: High
57.Thinking of someone: Yes bby.
58.Want kids: Yes
59.Want to get married: Maybe
62.Any name on mind: Brendon Urie
63.What did you want to be when you were small: Lawyer
64.Careers in mind: Lawyer
65.Mellow future/wild: Wild
66.Something you would never try: drugs
67.When do you want to die: i dont decide
68.Lips/eyes: lips
69.Romantic/funny: both
70.Shorter/taller: taller
71.Protective/caring: caring
72.Romantic/spontaneous: romantic
73.Nice stomach/ nice arms: nice stomach
74.Sensitive/ Loud: Sensitive
84.Broken someone's heart: no
85.Had ur heart broken: no
86.Been arrested: no
87.Cried when someone dies: yes
88.Liked a friend more than friend: yes.
89.Do you believe in yrself: yes
90.Miracles: happen
91.Love at first sight: yes
92.Heaven: yes
93.Santa Claus: yes
94.Tooth fairy: yes
95.Kiss in the first date: yes
96.Angels: yes
97.Is there 1 person you want to be with: yes
98.Are you seriously happy with where y're in life now:y yes
99.Do you believe in God: Yes :)

don't promise me

my lezzy crush (love).

Today went to j.e lib for ss project. dammit,alim and faiz wasn't there. but there was still erfi,me,heidi and nad. we searched for a spot with powerpoint so we could charge the laptop when the battery's low but the powerpoint didn't work. fucked up,what else? we did the research,gave out the roles...

Nad & Heidi - News Anchor
Faiz - Editor/Recorder/Extras
Alim - Tamil Tigers
Erfi - Sri Lankan Army
Me - Director/Extras

So that's it. heidi and nad rehearsed their roles using nad's newsmaker software. inserted the sunglasses for heidi because she loves it! haha,she looked really silly. then we took a few pictures using the webcam. nad wanted to eat,so went to cafe galilee. fucked up service seriously. we ordered the Chocolate Truffle and Chicken Chunks. we waited for the food for damn long,then erfi went and asked and the bitch shouted ' Can i see your receipt'. Fuck her with her fucking big glasses which are literally 100000 times bigger than her oily face and her shirt's like 100000 smaller than her body size. Bitch,then we talked to the manager and he said wait,and we received our food after a few decades. Haha,just kidding. Erfi went off after eating a bit,then we ordered the New York Cheesecake.

Went off and went to meet Afiq. we almost got chased by monkeys. seriously,the baby monkey was trailing us and then the mum came and then she followed. then she was directly behind us. i was close to tears and Afiq was also scared hahahaa! Then we stayed near the uncle we saw earlier and he said if it is with a child it'll bite. And the monkeys went to the fitness corner and then there was this guy,he was looking at the monkey and suddenly he ran and so the monkey chased him. Then we went off but still pity the guy. But we were laughing hahahah.



Anyway,on Monday went to Hort Park with Afiq. Haziqah said go there,so we went there. Anyway,it was a long walk and we walked all the way to vivo. We went thru henderson waves too and it was unexpectedly short. afiq was kinda sick hahaha. then we took ljs takeaway and sat on the rooftop there and ate :).

This is belated,but anyway,

Happy 15th Birthday Jazielah!

Faiz is back in Singapore,Nad too. Tmr,Jaz will be back from Bandcamp and my Brother will be flying off to Thailand!

Gdnight and Gdbye

love

bbq

yesterday bbq was good because of the food! haha faiz ate a lot,maybe me too and everyone else. afiq was there,haziqah was there and the whole family was there. my bro's friends was there. slept late yesterday and i woke up pretty late today.today watched the ramen girl. really good and fun! i did math today without calculator,but i think it's ok. i did math omg,i really did it. hahahah.

still texting faiz who is in melaka and prob. happy but miserable at the same time cos' the rest went to sleep and he's not yet asleep haha. hope he brings me back stuff. it's ok,i can text him what i want right? and i am missing everyone. i missed haikal's gig ytd,heidi didnt attend the bbq,jaz's at bandcamp,nad's in KL,syahz didnt get to come and the rest where? i guess next week we'll all meet and have lots of fun right.

ok bye

p/s yay u topup :)

forgotten

anw,just now,(fri) went out with faiz at night again! haha. met him at arnd 9pm and then we went to mac and eat. yes,eat again! haha we ordered mcwings and ate. and played with his psp. and he told me about pontianak. kinda scary,but was not really paying atttention cos using psp. then i finished one game! happy :). then going out,he said wanna buy icecream then i said i also want,then he wanna pay for me but not enough coins hahahah. so i paid :). hehe so today we spent lots of $$$$$ on food! more than $10 for sure. then we walked around and home.



fridayyyyyy

tuesday~~~~~~~~

to jaz : have fun at bandcamp !! :)
to nad : have fun in KL,don't forget meeee

y

fuck,this hurts. this hurts so much. why does it happen now? why do i only get to know this now? why why why? why are u doing this to me? are u going to deny it now? i bet you will. i cant think straight right now. finally,is it true?

molly molly makeout

been eating out the whole week. but the best was on monday when we tried something new. for sure gonna eat there again,probably will ask faiz to treat me. yesterday,went out with faiz and i paid for everything we ate at KFC. we laughed so hard otw home. today,went out with faiz again. we woke up late and met up late. since we've been having fast food for 4 days we ate something else. we walked to jaz house and waited for her for quite a while. then,went to IMM and ate at the foodcourt.

was soo full after eating. then we bought drinks at 7eleven. walked back to jaz house and i had to go to the toilet,so we went up. then left with faiz,we just went around the area and played on the see-saw. cannt stop laughing cos he was heavier and kept pushing me down hahahaha. then went back to jaz house and played psp and then after a few games walked back home.

right now alone at home but faiz keeping me company. this week,seen him for like 4 times already. we see each other like almost everyday,wonder why im not sick of him. haha. pics later,bye.

what am i doing?

been sleeping very late for the past two days or so. but i dont really mind. and i havent started on my homeworks. ive not printed out fn worksheet. i have not get the math portfolio from heidi. ive not started doing stuff for wakstar. im such a bitch. need to put first things first. right now,going out to eat. bye.

8 months

It's past midnight.

On tuesday,met up with heidi and faiz. went to the lib to return books and then ate at ljs. we crossed one place out right. hahah. then we met jaz under her block because we were around the area. we walked a lot but ended up at Ivory Heights.it was fun but fuckedup. omg i really hate it. the rest ditched me when i met him but faiz texted me and scolded me for waiting and heidi called me when she reached home and accompanied me until he reached. how can i not love them?

and i made it through. arent you proud of me? hahah.

Wednesday,went for lunch at seoul garden with mum and her friends. there was only 5 of us. we waited for her friends for quite long. ate a lot and i was so full after that. went home and then afiq called so went out with him. had to wait for him ugh :(
we walked around and then in the end went to get stuff from popular and then went home. i said the wrong things,so he followed me in and talked to me. I dont know,what should i do?

i wonder

yesterday night was hell,i wonder what tonight's gonna be like?

falling out of love?

I just realised i threw away my FN holiday homework and I dont have my math portfolio?
Erfi's gonna scan in for me the FN homework and i'm gonna scan the math portfolio from Heidi. But am i gonna do it? Yes. Really got to work hard starting from now to get the grades i want. I really have to improve a lot. Seriously. Dont u think so? Hmm

So here are the holiday homework

1. FN 100 questions (or more)
2. Math portfolio
3. SS IT Project
4. (Not sure) History Hitler's IT Project.

Ah,still not sure about the History homework.

Anyway,today I cleaned the room. I vacuumed it then rearranged everything. What i noticed was we have lots of bags and clothes in the wardrobe. So i had to fold all the clothes again and rearranged all the bags. But i only folded some of the clothes cos' some of them are inside the Ikea boxes and the jeans are too high for me and im too lazy. So yeah,it's not really cleaned up yet.

Got ready and i was late meeting Syahz and Faiz. I irritated the senior citizens beside us. Went to school but we were not allowed to get in. So we went and bought stuff and then took bus to Anchor Point and ate. Then we did somethings. And Faiz's slippers broke,we got attacked by mosquitoes and we walked to Redhill without realising. Faiz bought a new slipper and we realised there was no bus to Jurong from Redhill so we walked all the way to Queenstown. Took 51 from there. I was playing Faiz's PSP and i completed ONLY 1 game. I'm so pathethic. I almost made it okay. Then,we belik at Daiso. I love the pencilbox and the accessories i got.

Today was a really good day. We got what we wanted except for somethings. Right? We'll buy a better one the next time,i promise.

Okie,here's the tranny pix with heidi .










do you give a fuck to anything i say? do u even care about anything i say? i really give a fuck to everything u do,but do u fucking care? do u? ask yourself. what am i to you? your fucking reminder is it? do u have a fucking mind to think? even if u dont have it,im here and i helped u but fuck it. u give a damn? and guess what,i dont give a fuck anymore.

-

Is today gonna be fun? Gonna clean up my room before going out.

Where are we going?



I'm the fucked up bitch right?

Day 1

I'm not in bed.

Here's the Thurs tranny/dragqueen pics.







The next day with Heidi i'll post tmr.

Sigh

I wrote a fucking long post. But who cares?




Who do i trust now?
You or you?

FML,seriously.
what should i do?
should we just keep going or end it?



I think i'll post the post later tnite. Im fucked up,I'm pissed,I'm sad. Im everything but happy. Get it?

i am drag queen

where am i?

i am at faiz's house with syahz. i've makeup on and my hair's filled with hairsprays and what else? i have on this cute jacket. aww.

math camp was fucked up and no one bothers. today we went and had ljs breakfast. everyone's so full.


ok right,bye.

where am i?

math camp right now.

fun fact :drinking green tea will kill sperms and your muscles cannot grow.
by alim

is this true? hmm.

there's less than half the class here,so why am i here? i'm not even doing my work. where is fun?

alim is on my left while heidi is on my right.
alim's texting someone while heidi is trying to log in to some website.

bye tkcr

Not good enough?

My results are ok.

I got 3 A1s,3Bs and 1 C.
Class Position : 1/42
Level Position : 15/165

I thnk i did pretty well but the form teacher remarked that i was not doing up to expectation. How high did he expect me to do? Mum said i could do better. Well,i think i could do better for Malay and Math. Hahaha.

So what have i been doing? I've been to Singapore Flyer and Faiz been to my house with Nad but she left earlier and ytd,i had work and hottie eh.

Talk lattttttter.

Holidays are here,and im sure gonna read lots of books. Im starting of with this book by Meg Cabot.

Takecare now.