How do you know if.........

I woke up this morning feeling like crap. It doesn't happen often so it was a bit weird. I didn't want to do anything..I wish but I had to go to work. It's difficult when you wake up feeling like crap because your whole day will be ruined. I don't know what happened but i had myself questioning what I've been doing all this while and shit like that. I hope it doesn't happen anymore.

But i felt better as the day goes by. Man...what happened to me.

I feel like I have to write to make myself feel better.  But i barely have time because I'm either too busy working like all the time. Well initially the plan was to save enough money so I can go on holiday before school starts but no one wants to come along since they're also busy and yeah. Life y'know. So now I'm just gonna save all that...and see where life takes me. Guess what I googled in the morning? 'How to know if you like someone'. That is one of the weirdest thing I've ever done and i'm never doing anything like that ever again. Personally if I was in the right state of mind, I would've known that it's actually up to an individual to decide. There's no specific answer to know if you like someone or not. You just know it.

I am not gonna talk about that anymore. The more I talk about it the more I....oh forget it.

By the way Teen Top is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited because I've abandoned them for a few months now and omg their new song is awesome and the choreography is on a totally new level. Like it was super good now it's super super good! Hehe biasness overload but man I love these boys so much....

Title track : NO JOKE
like no joke IS the title track, i'm not saying...OK FINE.

Gotta let ma mind rest and think of better things (butterflies maybe..typical?)

IT'S LATE SO FORGIVE MY GRAMMAR MISTAKES OR IF YOU THINK I'M NOT MAKING SENSE.

Goodbye homieeeeeeez

Why can't you just be happy for me?

It's July. Of course Imma start with... Oh how long it's been since I last updated this blog. But let's just skip all that because I bet no one's reading and yeah. But it's July now and oh my god, so many things have happened. After Jakarta trip in March, I went to Korea in May! Yeah, after Jakarta trip the boys announced their No.1 Tour which is their first ever concert. Before that I was like 'Oh my god when will I see them again, I will miss them' and then BAM! a concert. There was any thought lingering, I definitely had to go because I waited for the concert since last year. And guess what? I was having Internship (still am, I have 2 weeks left) but nothing can stop me. Like ever, if i want something, I will get it. Don't ask me how, but I managed to go for the concert. Though it was only 5 days, I enjoyed it dearly. Took the plane out to Korea alone because I wanted to reach earlier. Yawen and Melly took their flight the next day. It wasn't any bother flying alone because I've been to Taiwan before but...this flight seems to go on forever. I got super duper restless in the plane. Maybe partly cos I was watching a super sad movie and cried my eyes out. Needless to say, they were swollen once we landed. Point of this trip, I had fun, I watched my boys 2 days in a row. Oh man, it was the best thing ever. Best concert ever..EVER. I can die peacefully now. I am not even kidding. Yawen and Melly brought me around well and fed me good food. We ate a lot of super good food and my favorite was Abiko Curry & Infinite's ice-cream - I forgot it's name, they were endorsing it and it was some weird pronunciation anyway. Second day of Concert, we arrived late like 2 songs into the concert because we got stuck in traffic. Well not really. We went to watch Dream Team at Gyeonggi-do. We left like 1 hour 45 minutes before or something and it was so difficult to get a taxi to the subway. Once we got it, the train didn't move for like 10 minutes. And then we decided to take a cab. So difficult to find a cab that wants to drive to Seoul and when we finally got on a cab, we dropped off somewhere weird and then..we had to take ANOTHER cab which went round the campus until we finally reach the Tiger Dome. Oh well..cried my eyes out for Angel for the 2nd day. It was so memorable. Sobs. Had to leave our dorm super early the next day because my flight is at 10am. Ugh, supa dupa fucked up internship! I would've stayed longer if i could. Another flight back home alone. Oh now i remember, i didn't eat anything that they served on my flight to Korea because it was disgusting lol. The flight back I forced myself to eat and I had such a huge headache. Since i was travelling alone, I got the window seat and I was hoping no one sits next to me (there wasn't anyone on the way to Korea) but unfortunately some Ahjumma sat next to me. She slept throughout the flight and when I wanted to pee I had to like shake her. Ugh bothersome. Ok now Internship is fine. Ending soon in 2 weeks and though it started off really horribly. I mean I wasn't used to such a fix schedule and you can't be late cos it's work. I wanted to quit in my first 2 weeks but it got a lot better after that and I've learned to embrace working life. Sleep early - Wake up early that kinda thing. But the crowd in the train still annoys me. Whatever, life's like that /shrugs/.Doing my final report now and I have so much to write but I'm so worried cos my English ain't good anymore. I want to go on a trip again and I badly wanna go Hong Kong (for IDK what reason). But I've no motivation to search for flights, set aside time and stuff. Wanna live life one day at a time these days. HAHA....... And I like this guy. OMG can't believe I'm saying this out loud. I don't even know if I like him? Like i think about him and if he's eating well and what he's doing and all. But REALLY FEELINGS? You should go, I ain't got time for ya. Ok I'll see you in a few months then. My #nowplaying - THE SUMMMER SET (BOOMERANG) XOXO FUNERALROMANCE

Wow it's been so long since i update. A lot of thing went on T_T. 21 October - Teen Top Thailand fanmeet 23 Nov - Vixx Fanmeet w Ninie Next stop 9 March - Music Bank in Jakarta! I love my life right now. I love how simple (or maybe not) it is. My boys are having their European tour right now. A year ago on this date, they won their first award on Music Bank. A year later they are in Munich, Germany for their first stop for their European Tour. Worldwide-dols! I love them so much, I am so proud of them. I like BAP too now. I am quite a bias person and I've not listen to them since their debut. The first song that reeled me into them was 'No Mercy'. I really like how good Daehyun's vocals was. And then I began watching them and I gotta say they're good. I love their dance the most. Especially Power. Powerful dance and I still wonder how they can still sing. Daehyun voice cracks a lot though haha! Quick update since I'm quite busy now. Bye! BY THE WAY, Happy 2013<3

Oh love

Been up to nothing much lately. Holiday season now and i think i've been spending my time quite well. Between working and doing things that i love. Keeping up with updates was tough at first because they were active and they had a million updates but now that they're partly inactive...barely any updates. I miss them already :( News that they'll be in Thailand in October. Hope it doesn't clash with the camp week or else I'll have to skip camp..for a good reason? Working is fun, not too stressful or what. Quite carefree! When i reach home everyday, i'll just shower and then finish up some work. Then i'll play Audition and then an hour later i'll just watch dramas. So happy that i can squeeze all the things that i wanna do all in one day. Time to go off now, bye!

I am all ALONE

I am so sad. Why do you always give me pressure to do well in school? Getting straight A's in school doesn't guarantee a good future. Yes, you do well, you get the cert, you go to university, get a good degree, get a good job. But does it mean you're happy? I don't wanna live my whole life studying. I'm happy the way I am even though i'm not a straight A student. I am happy as long as i don't fail any module. Those people who care so much about their grades and keep comparing them to other people, i wonder how they feel? I don't have the urge to compare my grades not because they are bad. Even if i do well, do i really need to compare. Yes you will live your whole life with your pathetic marks...Your life freaking depends on that paper. Whatever, do whatever you're happy with guys. One day i'm gonna run away. I won't tell anyone. Honestly, the reason i'm working is to have enough money to move overseas. I hate living here. I hate the environment in school like how everyone is so fake. Home is not a very good environment either because my parents keep pressuring me to do well. All i can say is fuck this shit. I'm turning 18 soon and as soon as i graduate next 2 years, i will definitely find someplace else to move. I'll save enough. I'll work hard. Yes, your family is your everything. You always have to depend on them and they're always there. Sadly, i don't feel that way thus i'm very independent. I don't value their opinion, i've never done anything that made them proud of me. My grades aren't something that's to be proud of either. My other siblings have proven themselves well. Fuck i think i have the best behavior but what does it give me? Nothing. You have a damn rudeass daughter but i don't know why you've never slapped the shit out of her or throw her out. If i'm her parents, she's nothing i'm proud of. I'm proud of myself and what i've achieved. No one else knows what i've achieved. Maybe it's not important to you, but it is to me. So bloody fuck off from my life. No one else is worth to depend on except yourself. They depend on you? Help them, but YOU, just remember in life, you're alone.