Oh love

Been up to nothing much lately. Holiday season now and i think i've been spending my time quite well. Between working and doing things that i love. Keeping up with updates was tough at first because they were active and they had a million updates but now that they're partly inactive...barely any updates. I miss them already :( News that they'll be in Thailand in October. Hope it doesn't clash with the camp week or else I'll have to skip camp..for a good reason? Working is fun, not too stressful or what. Quite carefree! When i reach home everyday, i'll just shower and then finish up some work. Then i'll play Audition and then an hour later i'll just watch dramas. So happy that i can squeeze all the things that i wanna do all in one day. Time to go off now, bye!

I am all ALONE

I am so sad. Why do you always give me pressure to do well in school? Getting straight A's in school doesn't guarantee a good future. Yes, you do well, you get the cert, you go to university, get a good degree, get a good job. But does it mean you're happy? I don't wanna live my whole life studying. I'm happy the way I am even though i'm not a straight A student. I am happy as long as i don't fail any module. Those people who care so much about their grades and keep comparing them to other people, i wonder how they feel? I don't have the urge to compare my grades not because they are bad. Even if i do well, do i really need to compare. Yes you will live your whole life with your pathetic marks...Your life freaking depends on that paper. Whatever, do whatever you're happy with guys. One day i'm gonna run away. I won't tell anyone. Honestly, the reason i'm working is to have enough money to move overseas. I hate living here. I hate the environment in school like how everyone is so fake. Home is not a very good environment either because my parents keep pressuring me to do well. All i can say is fuck this shit. I'm turning 18 soon and as soon as i graduate next 2 years, i will definitely find someplace else to move. I'll save enough. I'll work hard. Yes, your family is your everything. You always have to depend on them and they're always there. Sadly, i don't feel that way thus i'm very independent. I don't value their opinion, i've never done anything that made them proud of me. My grades aren't something that's to be proud of either. My other siblings have proven themselves well. Fuck i think i have the best behavior but what does it give me? Nothing. You have a damn rudeass daughter but i don't know why you've never slapped the shit out of her or throw her out. If i'm her parents, she's nothing i'm proud of. I'm proud of myself and what i've achieved. No one else knows what i've achieved. Maybe it's not important to you, but it is to me. So bloody fuck off from my life. No one else is worth to depend on except yourself. They depend on you? Help them, but YOU, just remember in life, you're alone.

Goodbye and Goodnight

Tomorrow there's NDP training! Boyz Nite Out is over and i have no idea how long it's been since i blogged. Been caught up doing nothing much. Just going with the flow of life with not much plans this week. Next week, school starts and that's when i have to live with a timetable. Doing things how they should be done and have a plan in mind, study plan and all. I want to work and earn all the money i can. I am really craving to see my boys again and God willing i'll be able to save enough (enough not to splurge) for them. Wherever they go during my Sept break, God willing, I'll be there. There's news about Thailand but i have to wait for more. Why not Taiwan again? It was fun while i was there and i want to go back there! Thailand seems dangerous but Unni's there and it's cheap. Ok whatever. NDP training tomorrow so i shall get a good night sleep! I don't wanna update...I just wrote down all my random thoughts there. :) GOODBYE N GOODNIGHT

700th anniversary

Happy 700th anniversary to my boys, Teen Top. Never been so proud of them. I've blogged about how much they've grown two days ago so i'm not gonna rant again. But if i can, i will. Proud of them in every single way. I waited so long for their first win. Then their second. Their deserving win that they worked so hard for. Since Clap, they're the one who light up my day everyday! I went through O levels looking through their pictures and surviving with their small amount of clips lying around. Glad i made it through! Watched them debut, and this will last! Preparing for saturday's fanmeet today so i have very little time to blog. Till then, goodnight! Oh yes common test is over!

Now Playing - All Time Low "Break Your Little Heart"

Last paper tomorrow! Hell to the yeah~ Life's been good and the boys went on radio shows yesterday (Younha and Choi Jungha) and i didn't manage to stream any live because believe it or not i was busy studying! Yes, MI (Medical Instrumentation) paper today was a mess. I could've easily done it if i studied harder. But all's been done and all we can do now is wait for our results and improve! L.Joe's last line in baby u.. "This song is for Younha Nuna, This song is for Jungha Nuna'. That little shawty flirt! I'm fine with it anyway. He didn't really sound himself anyway. This comeback i don't feel the hots for him. Woops l.joe looks like your purple hair ain't working it's way around me! Haha...Okay back to chemistry! Goodnight and Goodbye~

Common Test

Studying for TP now and i'm kinda wide awake because i drank coffee! Tomorrow I'll be having Math CT which starts at 4pm. What a weird timing. It's in the evening. Had my French CT on Friday and i guess i kinda screwed up. It wasn't that easy and we had to write a short essay. But since i paid attention in class and did mini revisions everyday before the test, i remembered a lot of vocabs but not grammar! So i will have millions of grammatical error when i get back the paper. I'm hoping for an A but...even the listening comprehension was disastrous! :( Teen Top completed their comeback for this week. Mbank, Mcore and Inkigayo! The boys have grown up so much and i feel like a proud mother. I cannot stop saying this because i feel like their mother. It's like watching your kid grow. Have u seen them during their clap era? They were so small and kiddy. Changjo was so chubby and he looks all teenage but now he looks older than me (when he'a year younger). Ricky doesn't have his baby face anymore and is turning into a matured looking man! I have to say i miss his baby face :) CAP lost all his muscles because we know he's lazy but he's still as eccentric as before and looks Korean as hell now. During Clap he kinda have the 'American Born Korean' face. Chunji and Ljoe was goddamn small last time. Chunji's face is still small but he look bigger now! L.Joe is still as skinny as ever and his hair color is always the odd one out but he's also grown (not taller, just...grow). Niel was so so so skinny back then but now he's gained weight. I will spend a fortune on my boys and that makes me happy. I just love you boys so much. I pray that this comeback will be as successful as Crazy and you won't be overshadowed by big groups. To You sounds very mature and it really reflects on you boys. Ok, tears will fall if i ever continue typing! You know, it wasn't worth my time. I don't want to make anything awkward and i try so hard but maybe it's just me that's moving too fast. I don't like to be kept in the dark, tell me everything. Explain to me. Now you're just leaving me here to fill in those blanks without any helping words. You suck. Back to revisions! Goodnight/Good Morning! (It's 1.45am now). God bless everyone in the month of June!

Teen Top released their full 'TO YOU' MV today and their album was released at midnight. I have to say the song exceeded what i was expecting. 'It's' was a super teen album. The songs were damn catchy especially Crazy which got everyone hooked on like mad! Even those who's not a fan of Korean pop, once they listen to crazy, they'll definitely be humming it for the rest of the day! But To You is totally different! It's got a mature, sophisticated sound to it! I am hooked onto it. Sounds like Sistar's alone (similar) but they're from the same producer (Brave bros) so...yeah. Feeling a bit uneasy these days. I miss you so much, i've not seen you around, i've not been talking to you. I wonder where i went wrong but i refuse to believe it's me. Common tests next week! Goodbye

Three Days adventure - Sundown Festival

Day 1
Teen Top's arrival in Singapore


I was so excited about Teen Top's arrival in Singapore because when they came for KMW it was via CIP terminal and then i couldn't see them even though i waited for hours! This time we also had things planned out so i was anticipating a lot more! I arrived at the airport at 7.40pm though their flight will be landing at about 2359hrs! Talk about excitement! Headed to Starbucks! My battery was low and i actually had things planned out so i need to contact some people however it was difficult so Haziqah and me kept looking out for the plugs to be available. While waiting, we bought drinks and we also played UNO! The loser had to check if the plus was available and finally after like 2 hours some people left so there were space for us! While waiting, some Angel came up to me and was like 'Are you Dee?' I was like 'Um..right' and they wanted to go for dinner so i told them that i'll talk to them after they finish eating. We exchanged numbers and after an hour they called me so i went down to Macdonalds and told them the plan. Actually they already kinda knew about the plan but obviously need to tell them that we're really doing it. After that went back up to Starbucks and got news about their belt number. Melly called and said she was arriving soon and Seo Hee arrived already. Nicole was on her way! That girl actually thought that she couldn't come at first but she did. If she didn't, we'd be dead since we're the one who planned the airport thing. At first they said it was Belt 45 but there were no Belt 45 at Terminal 2. Then Nicole told me Belt 33 so i went there and there were a lot of teenagers which we assumed were Angels! Lots of them were scattered everywhere and i was super embarrassed to have to tell them that we're doing the Clap thing. Also at first, there were no barriers but after a while people came in with barriers which is such a bummer! But i also wouldn't want the boys to be bombarded by so many Angels! After negotiating and talking with Seo Hee and Nicole, we just decided to go around telling Angels about the plan! I also printed out flyers! Went around and my tagline was 'Are you an Angel' and when they nodded i'd be like 'Do you know about the plan that we're gonna sing Clap......' and then i proceeded to do the action and sing. We told them about the rehearsal thingy too. Quite a few didn't know but actually i didn't expect a lot of people to know anyway! At 11.30,i was like contemplating whether or not to start because i am freaking embarrassed! But in the end, Seo Hee helped me. We were inside the barrier and was like 'Ok everyone, we're gonna start rehearsing now...1,2,3'. Everyone started singing but it wasn't loud enough! So we tried like 2 more times and then left it at what it is and told them that they had to be louder when Teen Top comes. To be honest, i was a little stressed because everyone didn't look willing to sing. They had their gifts/fanboards ready and only wanted to bother about that.

Skipping to the part where they just arrived, everyone was like spazzing like crazy. They were already screaming and i was like 'Ok guys, we really need to calm down, we need to sing remember?'. Then they went out and waited for their bags and the atmosphere was different. Ok whatever, when they came out the screamings got louder and then finally like 4 members at least came out so Nicole and me was like '1,2,3...I'm so cra-cra-crazy clap clap clap clap mad man' I honestly didn't know if they heard us or not because it was too crazy. L.Joe was waving really really hard at all the fans and Chunji was oblivious to his surroundings. C.A.P was super cool because he didn't have any bags on him and he was cheerful...Charismatic! Ricky looks lost honestly..he's got THAT face on which i don't know how to describe.
Changjo and Niel walked too fast for me to witness anything. I was stalking them so i had to quickly run outside to the van. But all the fangirls we running and screaming everywhere and my camera literally banged into the glass door. The fangirls we horrible actually they kept banging on the window of the bus and shoving the fanboards up their face! I mean girls really, just back off after a long flight they must be super tired and your horrible behavior isn't giving them any good impression of Angels in Singapore. One girl even had her LED board and was showing it towards Niel. Oh girl, it's night and your horrible light totally shocked the ass out of him. Finally found the van we're on and we were the only stalking van around! The curtains were open a litte and i could see L.Joe sitting beside Niel and Chanhee was infront of L.Joe. C.A.P was infront of Chanhee and Ricky. Changjo was sitting on the individual seats. L.joe saw our board when he turned to speak to the staff at the back. BUt he ignored. Chanhee took off his beanie while he was in the bus. When we arrived at the hotel, suddenly there were a hell lot of fangirls. They came down slowly! Like really, one by one and i could see them. L.joe was waving really hard at all the fans and Niel was smiley and Cap left the van last and he was all smiles! Security was damn tight and they pushed the girls a lot.

That was it...............................

Teen Top's arrival! Day well spent and worth my money $.$

Teen Top Day 1 in Singapore

25 November 11

I had school in the morning and i can't skip that lesson so i had to drag myself to school (8am lesson) and then rush down to Novena Square to spend $50 so i can get Teen Top's poster for the fanmeet! class ended at 10am and then met Haziqah who waited for me at the library. We cabbed down to Novena Square and honestly, i didn't expect that big of a crowd. There were a few Teen Top fans from the previous night too. We hung around the customer service and then the shop near it opened at 10.30. Most fans went in and i was like grabbing stuff and started queuing at the counter. we were waiting for 11am to come so we can pay for our stuff! Haziqah queued outside but the bitch there kept saying that we cannot queue (which is true since we don't have receipt) but i told her to just hang around. The shop owner was very nice because he was kinda giving us countdown like 5 minutes to 11am. And then 11am finally came and i was literally shaking because i was 9th in line to pay! Haziqah queued and i told her to just show some random receipt so they will accept us in the line. I told Melly about it too so her friend queued with us. I got the receipt and ran to Haziqah and then we were in the queue already. While we were queuing there were news that the Teen Top tickets were finishing fast because fans were just cutting queue until this woman came and sort out the queue and gave us numbers (but without the paper). Melly, her friend, me and Haziqah was together. We were praying real hard and we were lucky because there were some ViVid vans infront of us! And Zhang Yun Jing too! We got to the front and finally i got the ticket! I was number 39 so it means there were 11 more tickets left. How lucky was I? I was so happy, dying of happiness!

After Novena Sq 2 we went to check out the hotel. We entered through Marina Square so we were directly at the lobby which was pretty cool. Honestly, i didn't know we can access it through the lobby! There were already fans at the first floor when i looked down. Decided to go home before the fanmeet so we parted ways with Melly and her friends. Went home with Haziqah and when we reached home actually we planned to do stuff but we fell asleep and woke up at 3. We had to do some stuff so we were late-ish! Took the train at 4.30 and we were so so lucky to reach there at 5.30! Went into the fanmeet pit and some girls were like 'Oh she's the girl from yesterday'. Waited for quite sometime! Like actually it was a long wait. I was with my Pikachu and i was damn excited to give it to Teen Top!!!! ESPECIALLY RICKY. First zhang Yun Jing came and next was ViVid. ViVid is damn cool! They just give this great atmosphere and their fans are cool too. The members all look damn good! Love at first sight baby! Next was Teen Top and i was super ass nervous! I was at the barrier and i was screaming my lungs out when they came out! But when they went on stage i stopped since it was damn annoying haha!I was taking pictures. C.A.P was so charismatic i swear, he went down the escalator and was all smiles. L.Joe kept waving and i'm sure Ricky and the other were /shocked-ish/ at the amount of people. Like they were scared/lost? So anyway, Chunji wasn't in my face he was at another end so the once in my face was Niel and Ricky and L.Joe. Actually more of Ricky and Niel. I was taking pictures when L.Joe looked directly at me and he just give out this 'Love Stare'...feels like he's in love with you but actually he's just looking at you. Niel and Ricky looked at me too because i was screaming like Niel Niel Ricky Ricky and Haziqah was too! Awesome much? Chunji was.....idek, i didn't have a good view of him but when i look back at the pictures he was staring all over the mall. So i see the he's more interested in the mall than Angels in his face? Great! So the fansign continued and Angels were effed up because they didn't want to go on stage so i was damn pissed and i was like Ok i'll go and gave the woman my ticket!

I went on Stage and stopped infront of Chunji but the security was like Move it! So i moved forward and he said to stop at Niel. I was waving in L.Joe's face and i literally waited for their signatures. I was carrying my Pikachu! I was asking the woman by the side 'Can i give them' and she nodded so i was like okay and said hi to Ricky when he just look lost. And then i carried it up and wanted to pass it to him when the woman took it away. Lol, it was probably too big! Niel was really nice because he was smiling a lot. Before i went i was like waving in L.Joe's face again and finally went down.

We were going stalking so we ran to Velocity because Melly said Uncle was there! We ran sweating so much and then uncle said he was at some weird road and we ran there. Suddenly we saw a bus approaching and it was Teen Top inside! It was super unexpected because we were actually waiting for the van! Changjo nodded at us and Niel waved! There was another stalker van at the back and we went up our van. L.Joe was beside Ricky this time! They went back to their hotel and we're all like /oh they're not going for rehearsal/ Bought food at Millenia Walk and then went back to wait. We went to Marina Promenade but there were no activities going on except for some people practicing. /Not Teen Top/

After waiting until 10.30PM, we decided to go home since it's already late and they probably might not practice. We dropped Melly off because she wanted to take MRT so it was only Haziqah and me left. We were at the highway when suddenly uncle told us that Teen Top went for rehearsal! We immediately told him to turn back and called Melly. Fetched Melly and we drove back to Marina Promenade. True enough, they were practicing/rehearsing! There were very very very few people.




After the rehearsal, we stalked them again and this time they went past their hotel to the 7 Eleven. They didn't alight at all because the stupid people infront of us we screaming their ass off. Wouldn't you be terrified if some bitches just screamed at you. I don't know if they banged or not though. Melly,Haziqah and me went down but we're like just waving at them. And then we saw the curtain was opened a little so we waved and Chunji saw but he ignored and then Ricky saw so he opened his curtain. Haziqah and me blew kisses at him and then he blew back at us and then he closed it back. We didn't scream or anything but the feeling was really good! And then we just waited by the side of the bus and wrote somethings on the board. L.Joe looked behind and then he looked at our board and gave us the '?' face. Probably cos Melly's handwriting is cursive. And then he posed! Ricky gave fans a heart and then the girls screamed like no tomorrow. Finally the bus drove off and they went back to the hotel. We alighted from the van. One hand got a handshake from CAP so i was extending my hand out to L.Joe but he only smiled so i touched his wrist. And then i held my hand out to High-5 Ricky but super fail! He only smiled back.


End of Day 2!

Day 3 TEEN TOP in Singapore

Yay the day to Check in the hotel is finally here. We're suppose to arrive at the hotel at 7am so we can get our room earlier but then we woke up at 7 and rushed there. It was early and we were grumpy from the late night out but damn excited. Took train down to City Hall and we exited through Citylink Mall and then took can to Marina Mandarin. The uncle was really nice to us! Alighted from the cab and i have to say their service wasn't very good because no one opened the door cab for us or helped us with our bags! I used to work at a hotel so i know that these are basic services. We entered the hotel with our luggage and no one even bothered showing us the reception. Luckily we know that it's at level 4 so we took lift up.

We waited at the Atrium Lounge because we couldn't check-in yet because it's under Melly's name! We just sat there and used the laptop. It was really peaceful and the atmosphere was very good! Haziqah and me relaxed a lot there until Melly came at 10am. We tried to check in then but the room wasn't available yet so i just stored my bag there. We decided to walk around and went to the pool. We entered the pool and we bumped into one ViVid member (the shortest one) and i remember Shifa telling me that the shortest member is the drummer. He was shocked to see us (can tell from his face) because he probably thought we were fans but the truth is we just stared back at him and walked away. Nothing much there so we went to Marina Sq. Went to Macs and waited for McValue LUnch for our lunch. I ate McNuggets and i didn't even finish my fries! At 1Pm we went back and got the room keys! Room Number was 1509! We went up and then my bag was delivered too. We just chilled in our room and watched TV. Then Haziqah and me just randomly decide to stand outside. It was worth it because Haziqah suddenly was like 'Eh is that Niel'? and then Cap walked behind him! It was really them (on the 8th floor) and then we rang the doorbell for Melly. But by then they were nowhere to be seen. We went to 4th floor and then 8th floor. Walked on the 8th floor but nothing so went back to our room. We rest and watched more TV and then at 3pm went out to buy our Ponchos and get some stuff to eat.

So after coming back from Suntec, we had to get ready. It rained and then it stopped and rained and stopped and rained and stopped. Super annoying. 4.30, had to fetch Nicole from outside of the hotel and she looked like a lost dog among all the fans. Went up to the room and my pants tore while i wanted to sit on the bed. Melly went to fetch her friend. I changed into Teen Top's shirt and Haziqah's aladdin pants. Looking weird but whatever. We went out and queued up for the cab! To Marina Promenade! I was in my wedges but i brought slippers which i wore. Nicole collected her ticket and we met Seo Hee and Joey! We actually cut the queue because Nicole said there were space for us. I didn't mind and i didn't even know people were pissed at us because we cut the queue! I'm used to this actually because i don't really queue up for events unless desperate! Went in and i got to stand at the barrier. Since we watched the rehearsal we already know where they'll stand and what they will do. We entered the pit at 5.30 but we had a super long wait. It rained and then it stopped and then it rained again. It was super frustrating since i was holding on to my camera and i had my poncho on and i took it off when it wasn't raining but suddenly it started raining again. It went on for quite long that i got really tired of waiting already. It's raining = mood spoiler. Then after waiting till 8 they still have the cheek to show us all these stupid ads! But finally it started. It started with Temasek Poly stuff and then lion dance. Finally the first act came on. ViVid was so good i tell you. They really lifted up the atmosphere and even though i didn't know any of their songs, i was still rocking out with them. They were good and really awesome plus good looking too. Next waS Zhang Yun Jing and her voice was quite okay. She kept looking at Pit A because most of her fans were there. Which was cool! All of them gathered together! Then next we have Teen Top! To get them to go out the hosts make us chant Teen Top really loudly. Actually you can see the change in atmosphere because it was really loud all the shoutings.

And then they performed!

You,yes you,FAKE

It's been so long since i blogged and blogger is so different now! Really weird. Things hasn't been going as well as i want it to be. That's just because people have been talking to me about things i don't wanna hear. Honestly, i feel that it's my damn problem if i don't wanna forgive someone. People say that if you don't forgive someone, you tend to be more miserable, sad and all. But me? I'm fine the way I am. Not seeing or talking to people that i don't like make me a way happier person. I don't want to pretend to like or be fake when i talk to you. People like to say things like 'I rather have one friend who is true not only in my face but behind my back as well rather than having a million friend who is FAKE'. That's what people say but from what I see, you guys actually prefer the latter. Because you care about what other people think of you. Imagine just having one friend, others will call you a 'loser' and you wouldn't want that. So you continue hanging around people you dislike and act fake. Pffft, life these days! That's why i rather have small group of friends. Back in secondary school, i didn't have much of a problem like this. In Poly, most people are just fake. I hate making too many friends. Not being anti-social or choosy. This year i tried to get involved in something that hopefully will make me proud. But my time wasn't worth it. During the holidays, i worked and attended all their stupid trainings and camps. I was exhausted and barely had time to enjoy myself. Wasting my fares and money on all those stuff which in the end doesn't mean a thing. I could've saved more money and went for a longer holiday. Seriously, suck-ups and biasness. Part and parcel of life. My honest feeling is dissapointed. Maybe i didn't do well enough? Forget it and move on, hell yeah! Right now, i'll be studying well for common tests coming up in a week (CMB this Monday). Teen Top's coming back all over again! I'll post the video up tomorrow or something since i need to study now (Quite late, i'll just review some CMB slides!) Goodnight to myself.

Taiwan Fanmeet and Airport fanaccount

I'm blogging from Taiwan right now!

Teen Top was at the airport 1 hour and 15 minutes ago!
Woke up at 5.30 am this morning to send the boys off. Had quite a long shower because i was literally shaking since it was really cold. After the shower i felt warmer. -Angela brought me to 7-eleven to buy food and then hailed a cab for me. Once reached, i waited for Teen Top and then i was wandering around until a group of girls were screaming after people. Obviously it was teen top! I ran after them too since i was quite a distance away. And then i was quite close ( I didn't see Ricky and Chunji) but saw L.joe, Niel, Changjo and CAP.

I said Hi to CAP and he looked at me and nodded! So sweet. Changjo was wearing a mask! Niel looked really scared and quite uncomfortable? Cap was so chill and talked to the manager.I managed to walk with CAP and their manager and their manager was nice enough not to push me away! After they entered and walked away, another Japanese fan and me waved to them so hard and Niel and Changjo waved back! Yay~ Boys are really nice! Saw Chunji when he entered and he was wearing a beanie i think? Yeah should be (I asked the fans and they said Ricky was in shades). Ljoe was in shades as well!

So let's get to the part of the fanmeeting!

It started great with Crazy! They dimmed the lights and yeah! The fanchants were crazy! Next they had a small chitchat session (I can understand a little of both Korean and Chinese) but i had to listen hard. But i think the emcee (or was it the translator) who asked if they listen to chinese music and Niel was like No but they would love to? Next 6 fans were given the chance to go onstage. The boys were separated into two groups by scissors papers stone. Changjo, Cap, Chunji was in a group and Ricky, Niel and L.Joe in the other. The latter group started first and had to let the fans onstage guess which song they were humming. There were three songs. I didn't know the first two songs but the last song is 'Your Man'- Hyun Bin (Chinese version). It was a giveaway because Ricky sang eolmana eolmana and i was like Oh!!!!!!!!!!!! but the fans didn't guess the second song so.......moving on to the next team! They hummed to three songs as well, i didn't know the two songs but i know one of the song is Tong Hua!! They managed to get the fans to guess all three songs and they won. After the game the group which won got to take a group picture with Teen Top!

Next they sang Angel and everyone tried to sing along but i guess was just overwhelmed by their voice :) Guess it's all good~ I love it!!!!!!!

They went to change after the song and returned in black top and red jeans! Their pants were so so so low!

After that they performed Girlfriend which was really crazy for me i was dancing like one bitch thre!!!!!!!! FUCK THEY WERE AWESOME OK I AM LOSING MY MIND JUST THINKING ABOUT IT!!!!!!!

I think CAP looks the sexiest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! followed by Chunji (Niel is sucha minor hahahahah)

Yeah and then it was.....some talking which they had to do. Niel started first and said the fans in Taiwan is pretty and Ljoe said they were _____ (forgot) Ricky said we're sexy someone said we're cute or was that l.joe? and then i can't hear what Changjo or Cap said. I forgot what Chunji said as well. Next was a q&a (there was a fanboard outside earlier where you can post question or wishes or something like that). I wasn't clear of what question was asked but one of them was about bathing? Niel said he washed his hair first and then idk body or something and then Ljoe said hair followed by 'uh-uh' that got everyone laughing. DAMN CHEEKY!!!!!!! Chunji...i can't remember but cap said smth like don't shower or smth? Ricky said he start from head and then Changjo said he start from feet. Maknae line was sooooooooo adorable! I can't stand them that i was squealing so so much.

I don't know what the other questions were but they had to pick a member (Niel and Ricky got picked).

After that i forgot but i think we played Bingo.. The boys had to pick a number and say it in Chinese! Haha i have to count to know the numbers so i was a little slow.. It was fun though!!!!!!!! They said it in Korean at times but most of the time the emcee told them how to pronounce. Cap have the poorest pronounciation imo!! The girls who won had to dance on stage and they picked the best. One of them danced to crazy, the other one to supa luv and the other one dance to gee. Chunji was singing to gee for the girl to dance! They picked the first girl..i think she was awesome too!

After that they performed come into the world and clap! It was awesome as hell (third time seeing them perform this)! I was screaming my ass off for fanchants and then they said bye. Of course it was FAKE. The fans were like encore encore encore encore. And after a while (very short while) they came out and did Supa luv!!!!! CRAZYYYYYYYY IT WAS AWESOME AS USUAL. i couldn't stand myself using chunji's long note LAUGHING MY ASS OFF AT THE THOUGHT OF HIS NOSTRILS!!!!!!!! ahhaha fuccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk...............................

THEN THEY SAID BYE AGAIN LIKE OK BOYS JUST GO HAHAHAA......Ricky's bye was really cute (Bye Bye with an accent)...They came back out to perform crazy encore and it was awesome EVERYONE STOOD UP and me being me i stood on the chair...got chased down and then stood back on the chair :):):) Niel held up a 200cm =LJOE fanboard hahahaha...hilarious but poor ljoe (please stop teasing his height) like even if you admit you are fat and when people calll u fat u will be hurt right LIKE DUH... they didn't dance just did a lot of fanservice!!!!! yay.......after that was the high five session and they got row by row to go.

I went up with a board that says Singapore fan. Said Hi to Changjo and he said hi back to me and Ricky was looking at my board and then to me. Ljoe didn't even look at my board but he was really eager to just hi5 and look at the fans haha.. nice guy i can feel his warmness. and then we have Chunji with his bitch face who looked at my board and then look at me. WARM HANDS REALLY......i honestly was mesmerised by cap because he was just smiling ther and then i honestly didn't know if he looked at my board but he was quite sincere with his hi5 (i think he's just a troll :)) Niel waited for me and then he looked at the board and smiled at me with a hi5. Was it the lighting or was it just his hair i don't know but his hair is SUPER NICE....LOVELOVELOE

overall the boys are perfect creatures.

I am so tired from standing here (it's been almost an hour since i stood here to use the computer) anyway imma go sightseeing around taiwan and come back for my flight!!! BBEYOOONG

Hidden Track Romance

Chunji is on Hidden Track Romance on Mnet! I love him to death but the show was boring and it was downright fake! Maybe sweet at some parts but nothing too heart breaking! Honestly, i didn't even cringe a lot when i watch! I want to! But it was nice seeing him treating a girl right!

Anyway! Exams is in three weeks and i've been studying well! I'm working too on weekends and it's been tiring but oh well! I'm not complaining since i'll have extra cash on my hands! Teen Top's been doing good popularity wise i guess!

I'm tired and i have to get back to learning korean! I'm damn tired :( Goodbye and takecare!

Quick one

CAP had to apologise for something he didn't do wrong or say wrong. It's just how people see things. Everyone see things differently and what he said is being misinterpreted by some bitches and they decided to spread the news around and get people to believe what their perception is. I hate that he have to suffer from this. No wonder we have to study CQ in school! Bitches don't study tsk.

My heart hurts for him but oh well it's just one of those controversy which people will forget quickly.

I'm tired! Goodnight!

Your Guardian Angel

I just got done reading My Guardian Angel and it's a good book.

I've not read in the longest time ever and i miss every single bit of it. I remember indulging myself in books every single night and making it a point to finish one every single night. I had no life! But it feels good y'know why? You can just indulge in the book and just escape from reality (at least for a while). You're actually playing the main character and sometimes, emotions get to you. I admit, i've cried a few times while reading.

Last time, i wonder a lot why people don't like to read. Because i used to read every single day but now that i've been on hiatus from reading for a while i realise that people tend to be busy with other stuff so they simply just don't have time to read. Not that they hate it or anything (Oh well, maybe some people might hate it).

Today school was fine. Had math lecture for an hour only because he went through the topics with us already. He's going to fast i think! I can't catch up :( But i'll try and work hard to make up for my slowness. And then we have DEL tutorial for an hour. He takes an hour to explain one question and that one hour i can finish up almost 4 DEL questions. Sigh! Then i went home and totally skipped AEL lecture. I simply do not have the intention of going for that class! Went for track instead and the training was short because over the weekends some trackers have a mini competition or something! Best of luck for them <3

I'm going to get updated on Teen Top now! Oh and talking about them i received their albums yesterday! A total of 6 albums! And i got 3 Changjo photocards, 1 Niel, 1 L.Joe and 1 Chunji! Awesome, at least i got Chunji but fuck i didn't get Ricky! Damn bummed :(

Ok i'll go now since i have FBC recruitment camp tomorrow <3 Love~

2nd Week of Comeback

The boys comeback on Mnet Countdown!

They didn't win anything since they're #6! I'm proud but we fans could've done much better to fulfill their wishes. It sucks that Loen is not distributing the digital rights for international sales. Then what do international fans do? Sit and watch the boys? Yeah we can buy more albums but that'll burn our pockets! Digital are way cheaper! I cried when i heard this, i felt so helpless like I didn't do well enough for the boys but i know it's not really our fault. Oh well, let them big ass group shine! Y'know, it's not about the song anymore, it's all about how large the fandom is. Crazy is an awesome song, how can people not love it? It's damn upbeat and addictive just like any clubby song! Maybe it's just me? I honestly don't think so. Oh well, i really dont know!

So school's been really busy these days what more with track! I will reach home almost 10pm everyday! I keep up with updates but soon i will just not update myself a lot since exams are coming really soon! I keep telling myself this...Oh well! Goodbye and goodnight!

Fantasy

You know the feeling of loving someone so much it hurts? There's always the cliche question of 'Would you rather be loved but never love, or love but never be loved?'.

My honest answer to this question is to love. It doesn't matter if the person doesn't reply your love and loving someone is the best feeling you can ever have. Just a smile on their face and it really makes your day. I'm madly in love with someone i've not really met properly and probably doesn't know of my existence. People may call me crazy, retarded and obsessive but the truth is that it doesn't matter. They are not in my position to feel how i feel. The feeling is good but sometimes to overwhelming.

These days, i feel hurt. I've gone to the extend of being hurt when in fact the other party doesn't even know it's hurting me. Your perfection hurts. I love you so much, i wanna shower you with so much love and just hug you and never let go. Knowing the fact that it will not happen just...saddens me a lot. You guys will never know the feeling i swear.

This post is pretty pointless because i will just come across as someone retarded but i need to let this off somewhere. Head over heels over someone who doesn't know of your existence.

Oh right, i'll just go off now!

Teen Top's 2nd Mini Album - It's

Teen Top just released this just now! They're now back with It's, title song Crazy! I am very proud of this comeback because everyone grew up a lot and well. Comparing them to Clap days, you'll be surprised at how much these boys have grown! I'm glad i got to know them because they've been a great blessing in my life. Though i spend a lot, i don't mind! I'm happy and if you don't spend your money will you ever know what it's actually worth? No.

Honestly, this is a great track. It's very catchy and there's a generous amount of English in the song! Since K-pop have gone international i personally feel it's awesome. Everyone can relate to the song! and sing a lot during the English parts too!

I have to get back to my work now but yeah Teen Top is awesome! Bye~

Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone!

I've been wanting to blog since the new year's but i didn't find time for it! Too busy waiting for Teen Top's comeback and finishing up last-minute essays! Right now, i'm even rushing my DEL project! I haven't even touched on the theory, i'm just doing research since i want to use the computer!

Let me rant on 2011 a little.

2011 has been a really great and eventful year for me. A lot of things happened in just one year. I mean like sure, one year is quite long but a lot of things happened. And i probably spend a lot too, more then ever! And i didn't have any major exams to focus on or anything so i had a lot of freedom!

First we start the new year with work! I worked the first 4 months of the year. It was quite sad leaving Grand Hyatt because 4 months may be an awfully short time for work but i made a lot of great friends there! I love them all a lot and i still do to this day! The pinoys bellman, the part-timers bell man, doorman and all! Sigh, i miss them just talking about it! I remember Yuri but she left in mid-March! And then one Cel also left but i heard she came back? I'm not sure but i'll treasure all that! We're all friends on facebook which makes it a lot better!


Next school starts and though it wasn't a good start (I thought everyone in my class was an asshole because they were awfully quiet not that i'm any better) but it got a lot better as the semester pass by because we became very close! School was very tiring because we don't have a fixed schedule. The modules was quite tough and i study quite hard for all of them. In mid July (15 July) to be exact was the first time i saw Teen Top! It was a blessful experience! I love every minute of it. Oh before that i attended a concert on 19 April (Justin Bieber) and 9 May (Avril Lavigne). They were good but i wasn't very impressed like i was with Green Day but i'm glad i saw them live! Teen Top was great on stage and i met a great Thai Angel, Emi! I was with her throughout everything and she's really kind so i'm glad! Unfortunately, they had to rush back after KMW because they are scheduled for their comeback very soon!

And so Semester one ends! But it wasn't over there for me, no break! I was accepted for Overseas Immersion Programme in China! It was the best experience of my life. Before the trip, i only knew 4 people (Syafiqah, Mardhiyyah and Stephanie) but after the trip i made a lot of great friends. The experience there is one which money can't buy. We learn to be independent and surviving in China as a Muslim is really difficult but with the help of Stephanie who can converse in Chinese well, we managed to get to eat a lot of good food! Halal! It's called 'Qin Zheng' in China. Glad i signed up for the trip and got accepted. We even had to juggle 2 modules there. Having our tests and exams :) But Mr Seng was a great mentor and very flexible. Shopping was great and going to Beijing with only the group was a good experience too! Sigh, i really really miss those times there. It's like i'm living in a fantasy. Hazim was a great companion and without him we'd probably can't travel anywhere since we need a guy with us all the time! Weather was cooling too unlike Singapore. We met other international students like Korean, Russian, Thai and Indonesian! Studying overseas is really a breathtaking experience! I will definitely visit that place again someday. Tianjin!

Came back and Hari Raya was over. We only had 9 days left of the holidays! Made the best out of it and back to school! By then it was already October and i think Semester 2.1 was quite okay! Didn't sleep in class as much as i did in Semester 1. In November, i went for Sundown Festival and it was the second time i saw Teen Top. This time, i took stalker van and booked a room in the hotel. Oh hell yeah, it was all worth my money! And then we had our tests which i guess i studied very hard for! And i got a part-time job as stewarding. It wasn't very new to me but i'm glad i experienced hardship before! Maybe it's not that hard compared to other part of the world, but still!

And then in late December, i went for Block B's showcase which was totally unexpected! Oh well, it was awesome and they were great live!

That gladly summed up my year!

Timeline

<19 April> Justin Bieber's concert - $198
<9 May> Avril Lavigne's concert - $145
<15 July> Korean Music Wave - $285
<1 September - 8 October> Tianjin, China OIP
<26 November> Sundown Festival - $148
<29 December> Block B Showcase - $60

That's the amount i spent on concert in 2011! I probably spent a lot more especially for Sundown Festival and Teen Top's merchandise!

Happy new year and may god bless everyone!

Glad i made this new year post! <3