My heart only breaks when it's beating
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming
So I hold my breath to forget
It only hurts when I'm breathing

Long day today.

Started with 3 periods of FN. Didn't bring my coursework file along and got scolded. And then we did 100 questions and i did 48 questions in 2 periods. After that,had english and i really didn't know what was going on. At the end,she just called on some people to check if they're doing their work during class time.

After recess had geog test and it was kinda easy. Then had 2 period of math spent going through our test. During CME,we got our time to study for our elective mock exam. Sat with Heidi and Faiz and most of the time we were talking and laughing.

Had history mock exam after school and it was difficult cos' i didn't study. The second essay question was really difficult. Whatever,gotta study hard now.

Kinda tiring day. Kinda sick also now.

Most probably not going school tmr. I'm sooo tired.

Bye.

Little girl, what do you think you are doing?
You can't save the world
You can't even save yourself

Sex and white lies

Met the usuals and the sky was really nice this morning. We took pictures but turned out blur. The weather was windy and it blew our hairs but we enjoyed it because it rarely happen. The sun was setting when we were walking towards school. This is really nice and we even enjoyed the light drizzle on our skin.

English first two periods did a test again! :( Boring. After that we had Malay and went through peribahasa. Then Physics. Today we did revision and i got called out for quite a few times. :( This always happens!

Mr Su : Hajar! Why are u so talkative? Stand up!
*Stand for 2 seconds and sat down*
Mr Su : Hajar ,i ask you to stand up!
*Stood up again for 2 seconds*
Mr Su :Hajar stand up!

Ok so the next time i stood up for real and answered some questions.

Mr Su : What is the difference between scalar and vector?
Someone : Got answer infront..
Mr Su went and took the paper away
Mr Su : What is Giga?
Me : 10 to the power of positive 9
Mr Su : Oh you're looking at the board!

Then he asked me some other questions. Then i told Alim to not even look at me because it will be my fault! :( I got called a few times after that. Whatever eh.

Then after recess had Chemistry. We did our work first and then he went through it. This time really paid attention and then the period passed by very quickly. 2 periods okay. Then we had geog test and it's manageable. Hope get full marks ah. Then History. What the fuck! Had to do SBQ full paper and an essay question. Sucks so much. Got tired of writing...

Came a bit late for Chem extra lesson and he went through a bit of metals and moles. After that bought ice cream and Syahz paid for it. Thank you. We walked until bakery shop and Nad and Faiz bought their stuff. Went to Mac and then ate. Went somewhere and talked and then Nad went home. We walked Heidi home and stopped at a kedai and bought our drinks :) Walked abit more and then we took pictures.

Syahz : I've never stepped inside a street soccer.
Me : It's the same feeling.
Syahz : Maybe it will be a bit different.
Me : Okay let's try going in now.

So then we went in. It was fucking hot anyway. Then Jaz bought Mash potato..walked a bit more Faiz bought peach tea. What the fuck today stopped at a lot of shops. Took bus home with Faiz and Jaz. Yay!

Anyway,this place right now feels more like home to me. Though i've lived there a period of time i still feel weird there and this feels more homely! But it's a bit packed with a lot of stuff not unpacked yet.

Yesterday..............................

Yesterday i was too tired to come back on.

So i came to school late. Only came in during math and we did the math test. It was manageable but i had no time to do Question 5 or something. I lost a lot of marks and i don't think i'll get good marks :(. After that went to the library for Poly briefing or something. Didn't do anything much. We actually mostly talked about jalan raya haha.

After recess,we had 2 periods of geog. I was talking to erfi and he had to get his place changed because we were talking too much. Then we did a bit of written work and studied for our test. :) Then wo had SS. He talked for a bit and we got a little bit of free time to study on our own. Then had Chem and got distracted again halfway because erfi wrote down some things about jalan raya and then we talked about it until the end of lesson! Haha~

We had a stupid CME test. It is very merepek! After school waited for Heidi. She had to do her english summary. Mr Su came to us and told us to be quiet.

Me : Ok we have to keep quiet for 5 minutes and cannot laugh ah.
Faiz : Cannot la.
Me : Can,try.
Faiz : Eh look fat bitch running.
Me : Eh quiet la. Cannot laugh okay
Heard this bitch teacher talking and i started laughing.

What the fuck,we seriously can't stop laughing ah. And i talked to the guy beside me and Heidi said he is quite cute also. Haha..We bought our drinks and then went home.

At home folded the laundry and then got ready. Went to Faiz house first,he fixed his eyes and then packed bag and we went out. Went to IMM and i forgot to bring his sweater :( We ate at burger king and my burger is damn small compared to Faiz's but he still finished faster. Then i got so damn cold we had to get out. Then went back in and looked at keyboard and daiso and then bought drink at 7eleven. Went home after that and had to run for the bus. Kental ah.

My bro ordered Mac at night but i didn't eat cos' I was feeling really sick. On air-con summore and i was freezing cold. Used his blanket and mine at the same time and i got better after awhile.

The next morning,I didn't wake up late. Yay :)

Bye :) I'll post later part today.

S to the ICK.

I feel sick. :( Maybe exhaustion i don't know.

I overslept just now and came late for school. Just like last week.

Blog more later,gotta study for geog test. It's always test test test :( And im always getting scolded by her nowadays. Dammit.


K bye later~


Topup already yay :)

:(

School sucks today. I asked Faiz if he was going to school and he replied with a 'Duh' and i quickly got ready. What the fuck and he came late. Should have slept in!!

In the morning had haircheck for our level only. Didn't get caught like duh-uh. Had FN for first two periods. Got back the surprise test! I'm lucky i passed but wtf i got really poor marks :(. Seriously how to get A like this :(. But gonna work harder for the exams like duh. Then we got back our coursework marks! I think i got the highest but still kinda lousy did a major mistake in the prep forgot to add in the details :(. So we had to re-do our conclusion which she said was badly done but seriously i got 6 and i can only get 2 marks more so how the hell do i re-do my conclusion. Went through the test..and cheer up Jaz :)

After that we had Malay free periods! Did the bina ayat and my sentence was all meaningless. And Faiz kept copying and just changed the names. Haha! And i seriously didn't know what ekawarna means i just wrote down 'Heidi mencari makna ekawarna di dalam Kamus Dewan'. And after i wrote that down i just remembered that it's suppose to mean 1! Haha wtf but didn't care. After that we had chemistry. Didn't pay attention because he is just going through whatever is inside the notes. Copied down some stuff and talked to Faiz. Ate during recess and like Jaz said we adapt quickly yay :)

Then during Physics sleepy i even fell asleep and i wanted to make myself comfortable and suddenly he called out my name. What the fuck! Then i had to answer whatever and then went back to daydreaming :( Feel sad for myself for always getting caught during Phy. Had 2 periods of SS and we did the ranking. Gonna study for it asap since the exams are coming first. Then had geog and i didn't do my work so i got scolded and a very dissapointing mark for the test. Damn what is wrong with me! Then erfi told me about one of my pictures and i kept smiling! Kembang! Then got scolded cause i was 'distracted'!

During english i fell asleep. She was giving this test on what and halfway i was sleeping. I woke up sleepy but we had Phy extra lesson. I sat beside Alim and i got my foolscap taken away because i was doodling. :( And he wanted to return it to me and called me crazy cos i was doodling shit i think. Then had to take the past year exam paper since i didnt turn up for the previous phy extra lesson..

After that went to buy drinks and then we hung out for awhile. Walked home with Heidi after that.....

What a stupid day. Seriously I hate today i wish school never exist! And exams are just taking up our Raya time and that is another stupid thing. School can go suck balls! Dammit now i have math test tomorrow and CV wtf CV!!!!!!!!! and Geog :(

Life sucks.

2nd day

Selamat Hari Raya! :)

Selamat Hari Raya

SELAMAT HARI RAYA EVERYONE.

forgive my mistakes and give me duit raya kay :) hehe bye.

Rock Star

School was fine today. I woke up like really late and felt like going back to sleep..but i ended up in school.

Aqilah reached first eh and Heidi was not in sight and I totally forgot that she was sick yesterday. Waited for Alim and Zaki and then walked to school. I was fucking sleepy and had Math for first two period. Copied down whatever and wanted to sleep but got work to do and need to hand up. Wtf. Didn't do anything just wrote down answers from the back of the book haha.

Had history test afterwards and of course it was Okay. Haha....Had PE and we're suppose to play soccer. Didn't go for it at first then we hid behind the pillar and he was like 'Girls come out'. How did he figure it out?! Haha,so we just kicked the ball around and then recess still sat there. Changed before MT and the teacher didn't come again. But we had to do another paper and i did it until the last few questions hahah.

During english,we continued with our test but i fell asleep and the weather was nice. Went home straight and fell asleep for very long.

At night went for Terawih. I stayed for the whole thing. Then waited for dad and went to eat...Then we bought food for home and then went home...So no more terawih and sorry Faiz didn't meet you.

Watched Marley and Me and it's a sad story.

So excited it's after 12 so it's officially the eve of Hari Raya! Raya $$$$$$$.

K la byeeeee :)

Lazeeeeeeee

Lazy to go to school today but i still dragged myself to school.

Teacher didn't come for Eng and we were all happy :) Of course. We had to do a test and it's better than having her in class. Then had MT,teacher absent again. We did a crossword puzzle and it's the first time i'm doing malay one i think. Anyway it was quite easy :) Still haven't handed up my homework haha.

Then we had Physics and finished up our practical the other day and continued with our topics. I
had to answer questions and then Haikal also had to stand because we were actually looking outside then he was like 'What's so interesting outside,stand up'. Then the pig also stood up. Stupid it was me and Haikal dumbass. Haha.

During recess we went up to class and did our Physics worksheet. Then we stayed and talk until chemistry. First period he went through our notes and then second period got back our papers and i got full marks for it. Yay me and everyone else also scored very high. Yay yay yay! Made Alim angry because we were scribbling on his desk and paper and Sorry Alim :)

Geog she forgot to mark our test papers so we had peer marking. I was marking Mervyn's paper and he didn't write down a lot of stuff and got quite low. EE i'm also gonna get low marks ;( Cheer up jaz,you can do better next time. After that,we had history and did 2 essays. Seriously 1 eassy 15 minutes. And then had free time after that.

After school did FN with Faiz and Jaz. The computer at the library was slow and Faiz kept changing computers. We went out to print the photos and then came back to school to hand in FN coursework. Met Heidi and Syahz and went home together.

Gonna eat with Afiq later. Bye guys :)

Brown hair

Still got 3 malay papers to finish. 2 is like from before September holidays and i dont even think of doing it. I hope she don't come again tomorrow :)

School's been fine and yay Hari Raya is this coming Sunday. Seriously can't wait and then exams :(. Today had our geog test and damn i wrote down wrong things -.-. Just hope i get more around 17 then at least it's okay. And dear Jaz,please cheer up and study harder :). Haha we were toooo hooked up talking about Jalan Raya that we didn't have the enough time to study hahaha.

During chemistry also talked about it and we were suppose to be concentrating because that comes first. Oh my percentage went up for math and i'm happy because at least it's an A now. But i still forgot to do Monday's math homework :( So by Friday gonna hand up all the portfolio up to Week 10 and the math Holiday homework and Monday's homework. Then by Friday also need to hand in our SS assignment and I've just spent like 1hr plus plus doing it and i don't understand the topic and my tb is in school which makes it soo more difficult. Hehe.

Not really sure when is the History test,tmr or Friday? Damn you short ball didn't tell us clearly. Tmr getting back our Chem test mark.

K bye.

so much homework,so little time :(

Promise you wont lie?
When?

Do you get jealous easily?
Probably

Anyone has disappointed you lately?
Yes

Is there anything currently hurting on you right now?
Hmm yeah

Have you kissed anyone in the past week?

Yes

Do you believe once a cheater, always a cheater?
I don’t really care

Have you been a happy, angry, or sad person lately?
Yes

Do you think you have made someone on cloud nine recently?
Yes of course!

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
Nope

Has someone put their arm around you in the past 5 days?
Yes

How is your heart now?
In perfect condition

When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life?
When I was real young with no worries

Who do you love the most?
Myself

Whats been different this year?

I don’t know

Do you miss anyone?
Nah

Do you think two people can last forever?
Yes

Can ex's ever be just friends?
Of course

Do you love anyone right now?
Yes

Can you ever forgive or forget, if it really hurt you?
Not ever I guess

Did you wake up smiling today?

Nah


Have you cried your heart out lately?
Yes I guess

Who do you wanna kiss right now?
You

Do you say sorry first?
No haha

Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
Yes

How has this year been for you so far?
Good I love it

Describe 5 things about the person who make you do this survey?
I don’t know

It's always me

'boobs dangling and only in her panties'

uhuh,guess who said that. fuck still in my mind okaaaay.

Yesterday went out to the library to do homework. I waited for Faiz to wake up and watched TSLondeck. So i rushed after Faiz said he finished bathing already and then i got ready and met Syahz at the backgate. We walked to the opposite bustop joking about my damn hair. Hate how my fringe turns out hahah but it's gonna be nicer later~ We were already late and we sat down and guess what a bus bypassed us. That makes us wayyy later.

So we had to wait for another bus for like 20 minutes plus. (Jaz was already waiting for like 1 and half hour). Faiz boarded the bus at his bustop and then there was a mini-accident. Fuck that,makes us soo much later. Then we got through and guess what? The bus had to slow down because there was this chinese thing going on? Ok makes us late again. See what an unlucky day. So Jaz waited for around 2 hours for us. Soz J.

We finished up Geog and Math in the lib. Oh don't you mean me? Cos' i did Math and they copied. Haha,but whatever it is we're done!

Blabla.

At night went for Terawih. Haziqah prayed with me and saw Jaz and guess what i was sitting beside Jaz mum. Left after the first 8 and talked with Haziqah for a while and walked to Mac and bought McSpicy. Waited for Faiz then eat they walked me to bustop. And Faiz realised his phone was missing but I had to go already. So he and Haziqah went back and luckily they found the phone hehe .

Quite a day~
Bye

Luvv

Red Lips

Sept. Holiday Homework

1) 1 Geog Worksheet
2) Chemistry MCQ Practice Paper
3) Physics WB
4) SS SBQ Worksheet (2)
5) English Little Red Riding Hood
6) Math WB Excercise (6Q)
7) FN FN FN

I can't think of any others and I don't have the Chem and Phy homework anyway. There's gonna be Geography test the first week,the next week we're gonna have mock exam? History test too.. And we also have our Malay advertisement to do and Malay overdue work. So do you think i'll be able to complete it? Should be hahaha.

P/S I LOVE MY HAIR.

And about me dyeing my hair, i don't think so anymore. I've spent a little more than i should have today. We'll see... Bye~

excitedbsng

Faiz and me gonna do something really exciting tomorrow. yay yay yay yay yay yay!

Yesterday went out for break fast with afiq and friends it was ok but food sucks so boooooo. ah not gonna dye the hair tmr dammit but doing it before hari raya right mum?

today spent the whole day watching 10 things i hate bout you. not really the whole day but really it took up most of the time and im just waiting for episode 10. secret life and 10 things yay yay yay.

and it's holidays next week. not rly gonna study. maybe gonna do math tonight (oh it's late already but who cares).

good luck for N level people byeeeee

Sick little Games

got back our progress report.

I didn't get an A for FN and this makes me damn frustrated. Blame it on me,for missing quite a few lessons. So out of all i got 4A1s and the rest are 3Bs. At least no C this time round. A lesson learnt for math,hand up your homework,or you'll lose marks. That really sucks. Haha.

Today school was really fast. Played floorball for PE and it ends up with me being damn thirsty. Sent Jaz home and waited for her near playground. Then afiq suddenly came and gave me bubur haha. That was really random,then sent me home. Slept awhile and now i'm going out..

dont be a fucking coward. you're a fucking pussy ..come out and face the world.

Take Me Away

too much going on,who thought i could get through?
nobody else but yourself,remember that.

stop lying but in the first place,did i lie?